I guess there is no easy way to break up with someone. I definitely feel terrible now and like I have hurt someone who didn’t deserve it it and that I have been really, very, careless. Our conversation ended with him telling me, “I am a fucking person” as if I didn’t know. As if I don’t feel badly.
I have never felt like a bigger jerk in all my life, than I do right now. I refuse to hate myself in this. I made mistakes. I am human. I hurt someone. It was a mistake. I fucked up. I moved too quickly. I wasn’t being careful with my heart or his.
I have learned some hardcore lessons. That’s for sure.
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((Big ole Texas sized hugs))
Sucks the big one.
He’ll be more than fine and you will too. Try to remember that.
xxoo
By: T on January 18, 2010
at 1:09 am
Oh T- the break up was so ugly. sigh.
thanks. im lucky to have solid friends who are helping me see things clearly. i am not scum. i dated someone. it got too serious too fast. i tried to communicate boundaries. it didn’t work. we broke up. i am not an asshole. i am honest and did my best.
By: Krista on January 18, 2010
at 1:28 am
It seems to me that you did what you felt was best for you. You listened to yourself, which in my mind is the key to being happy.
By: Jai on January 18, 2010
at 7:42 am
And my goodness – you spared him falling any more deeply or becoming so much more enmeshed or attached in your life than he did. He is hurting and wants to lash out. It is perfectly normal. Allow him his pain.
And allow yourself to feel some pain as well. You are not an asshole. Doing your best is all that you can do.
By: T on January 18, 2010
at 9:28 am
xoxo
By: Tracy on January 19, 2010
at 4:32 pm